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savior_n_blackIt was difficult for Ichigo's internal clock to adjust without the sun rising, and setting to mark the borders between each day. Ichigo didn't mind too much, though, because he was happy for the quiet settled in the little 'nest' of blankets the converted sleeping alcove offered during mid-afternoon. Rukia was closeted with her sister, and adoptive brother ( brother-in-law? ) getting them caught up on what had happened in the year's ( or week's, it's hard to keep proper track with a time, or universe paradox around ever corner ) events leading up to their abrupt arrival in the city of Abax.
After the moment of complete emotional overwhelm, Ichigo had used the minute, or two it took to dress himself to gather the wits. Wits that seeing Shiro, again, had effectively scattered, even to the point that Ichigo's inherent stubborn resolve to hide all of his more intense emotions was thrown out the window the moment he felt those familiar claws pricking his shoulders. Shiro, though...well, he was so out of sorts that once the hollow had dressed himself, Shiro barely put up more than token arguments against Ichigo carrying Shiro piggy-back style all the way to the shop.
That's where they were, now. Shiro was curled up with Ichigo next to him, and both had gained another warm comforter at some point while they slept. But, now Ichigo was awake, and though painfully aware of the risk of starling Shiro...he just could not help it. He couldn't help reaching out to let a lock of that soft, white hair slither through three of his fingers like strands of spun moonlight.
Fuck, but I was such an idiot.
I've missed you....so much...
And both statements were further illustrated by the fact that Ichigo still 'talked to himself' within his own mind ( too used to Shiro 'taking back' to stop ) and the uncensored addendum to the first thought. Idly, he let the lock of white hair fan between his fingers, and though Ichigo could feel that raw, burning, urge-- no. The need to wrap his arms around Shiro, and hold on tight, he also knew the hollow was upset with Ichigo.
Not, you know, that Shiro didn't have a right to be, but still.
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Date: 2012-01-29 12:46 am (UTC)Maybe that's what he needed to hear. Needed to hear that he wasn't the weak link here, even though he was physically inept. Needed to hear the reason again. That Ichigo still felt that way, despite taking his sweet ass time. And he was stupid. Of course he was. He was always stupid. He shouldn't be surprised at all.
The Hollow finally, finally, moves, the hole in his chest aching more than normal. He rolls over in Ichigo's arms and sits up... then falls against him, clinging.
"I was scared.... scared I wasn't going to see your stupid ass again... you idiot. Or that'd it'd be so long..." I don't hate you. I just hate how stupid you are sometimes.
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Date: 2012-01-29 06:42 am (UTC)Ichigo clung, not caring a bit that he was dragging Shiro into his lap, and probably would have been squeezing the breath out of someone who had need of air for more than just speaking.
"'Told you that I'd find a way. That you're mine.
...And I told you that I'd never leave you behind. Stupid, irritating, beautiful, bratty, hollow"
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Date: 2012-01-29 06:58 am (UTC)... Except that. What was that. Shiro traces his fingers across this weird new thing on Ichigo's neck and looks up at it, quizzical. A quick tap of his claw against the armor produces a sound like porcelain or bone, and the Hollow sneers.
"The fuck is this crap on you?"
Does it come off? YANK.
Oh. Nope. It doesn't.
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Date: 2012-01-29 08:34 am (UTC)Slapping at Shiro's hand with a huff, Ichigo can't help rubbing at the abused spot on his ribs out of reflex. The armor was kind of cool, but also weird to get used to.
"It's attached, okay? So...I don't know why you don't have it yet, but you're still...uh...'under the weather', right?"
More insistent this time, Ichigo raises his wrist, tugging the sleeve all the way up to his elbow, and offers it to Shiro.
"Take it. When you're that hungry, and tired, you're past needing it. I know you are."
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Date: 2012-01-29 08:50 am (UTC)Hm. That's interesting. The composition was almost identical to a Hollow's mask. Bony, enervated, easily broken on it's own strength but extremely powerful when infused with reiryoku. How interesting. But Shiro doesn't report his findings. Not right now.
Shiro looks at the arm and wrist and turns it over. "Tch, there's some on your wrist, too. But I can get to the vein from this opening. Since you're so intent on me suckin on ya." Shiro gives a sneering grin, then opens his mouth wide. Too wide. Cracking his jaw open inhumanly wide and showing a mouthful of fangs, he sinks his teeth into Ichigo's arm right above that stupid armor. Sorry, Ichigo; no surgical slices this time. This time, it's more like being bit by a shark. Or a crocodile. Painful. But Shiro doesn't care because that blood is flowing freely, and his drinking it up greedily.
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Date: 2012-01-30 04:28 am (UTC)Gritting his teeth, and only letting a little, hoarse sound of pain escape, Ichigo shut his eyes, clenched his hand in the back of Shiro's shirt, and just sucked it up.
It didn't take long for the effects to begin becoming noticeable. Not hugely so, but the evening out of black, and white reiatsu displayed in superficial, physical ways first; Shiro's hair altering it's length automatically, the ghostly outlines of inverted armor braces on the hollow's wrists, his ankles, and even his collar. The aching sense that Ichigo was missing some important piece of himself began to subside, too, as the red soul-chain that bound them flared into visibility briefly.
Cracking one eye open, Ichigo would have smiled at the changes had he not been busy keeping his mouth shut on pained sounds. He'd have to pull Shiro off through force if the hollow kept this up...
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Date: 2012-01-30 05:03 am (UTC)Shiro doesn't really notice those physical changes. Hair, armor, an inch of height and a little more lean muscle. He does notice that the more he takes, the more clearly he can feel pain in his arm until it feels like teeth are actually embedded in his arm instead of Ichigo's. Good, it meant it was working. And he could feel his energy returning, his power surging, and that horrible Hollow feeling receding as his bond with Ichigo was reforged.
But there was one last thing that needed to be shared. And this final burst forces Shiro to let go because of the pain, pain that wouldn't be shared. Memories. The Hollow clutches his head in his hands, groaning and cursing as Ichigo's memories rush in to fill the gaps in his. Aizen's final moments. The monotony, the longing, the lies. The Fullbringers. Chad. Ginjou's deception, Tsukishima's terrible power, the horrible sensation of losing everything. Then that stabbing sensation, magnified, because Shiro HAD actually felt that. Ichigo's first true kill. Rukia.
"Hrrgghhh.... gh..."
Holding his head as it throbbed, the Hollow can't do much except curl up into a ball as the flashes of memories settle themselves into his brain matter.
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Date: 2012-01-30 06:26 am (UTC)He fell with Shiro, forward to slump over the hollow, barely realizing that his bloodied arm smeared stains on the sheets. He felt his eyes go, ( colors, light, all sharpened into hyper clarity ) turning hollow black, and gold as a year's worth of time caught up with Shiro all in one long burst. It was painful to Shiro - neural pathways being branded into the mind in such a short time was normally not something a human brain could survive - but as the hollow curled up, Ichigo gasped, mouth working around sounds that wouldn't come.
He couldn't get a breath around the rush of all that time equalizing with his hollow. The soul chain flared bright, and throbbed with a hellish, red light, transmitting knowledge, yes, but more importantly? Power.
The power to create black tempests of hellfire, the strength to fuel Shiro's hollowfied abilities, and in return, Ichigo's arm felt like it was made of ice cold acid - what liquid nitrogen would feel like he imagines - as the muscles, veins, and skin knit themselves back together smoothly. It hurt. It all hurt in such a strange way!
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Date: 2012-01-30 07:05 am (UTC)It was the power that turned Shiro back on again, gold-on-black eyes shooting open once more as his pounding headache persisted. He rolls over onto his back and holds his forehead, but the majority of the pain is gone as quickly as it had come. And in it's place, that familiar burning of raw power in his chest. The power to level cities, to destroy anything, to rip holes in the fabric of space itself. The power he was used to, so used to, that he needed it to function.
He paws at his eyes and then looks at Ichigo.
"... Phew. I wasn't expectin' that."
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Date: 2012-01-30 07:43 am (UTC)His eyes hadn't altered back to human brown, either. They were still just as black as Shiro's, for all that they were squinted at a world that Ichigo wasn't seeing right now. He'd almost forgotten how...how angry he felt like this. Like something had ignited inside him, and the slow burn was searing his insides, but somehow he wasn't burning alive, yet.
Blinking once. Twice. The black and gold eyes stay, but glance up at Shiro all the same. Something dark, and predatory sat in those eyes. As pure a mirror image as they had ever been.
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Date: 2012-01-30 07:50 am (UTC)"Oi..."
HE could feel vague echoes of what Ichigo was feeling, but not much. That probably wasn't good. He blinks, confused and maybe a little worried, when Ichigo looks at him with eyes that are perfect copies of his own. Too much Hollow reiatsu, too soon?
He makes a face and puts his other hand on Ichigo's other shoulder. "What's wrong?"
NSFW from here on in, kiddies
Date: 2012-01-30 08:22 am (UTC)But none of that mattered. He wanted to...he wanted to beat his fist against that pale reflection until the damn worry was erased from it. He wasn't so weak he needed Shiro, of all people, to worry about him!
Without answering, Ichigo uncurled in a flash. His hands grabbed the hollow's wrists in a bone-grinding grip, forced them back, away from having the leverage needed to fight back. He threw his weight forward, shoving down, pressing hard, and see-sawing a knee to force his way between Shiro's legs as well.
Even his growl was distorted, and not quite human.
A growl which became silence by lips, and tongue, and teeth worrying at Shiro's. Sealing searing demands against the hollow's mouth, and demanding entrance all at the same time. Missed you, and need you, and hate you right back. You take, and take, and take, and never give back unless you want something. Well, now Ichigo wants, and without a way to articulate that want, it's raw, and visceral, and the only way he has to communicate.
so very not worksafe 8D
Date: 2012-01-30 08:30 am (UTC)And instinct knew how to get rid of frustration.
Woah. WOAH. Hold on there. The Hollow hisses and growls right back when Ichigo forces his hand down and away. What the fuck?
Holy fucking shit Ichigo had never been this way. Ever. Was this how Shiro was? It was kind of scary! And despite the searing feelings of anger and frustration, it was also kind of hot. Shiro isn't going to go down easily. Invigorated from Ichigo's power, he fights right back, pushing against Ichigo's tongue as they kissed. Biting his lip, being bitten in return. Blood flowed from both already, blue and red mingling in their mouths and making a metallic, purpley mess. His hands are tied, literally, so the Hollow brings his legs up and around Ichigo. He snarls and fights against it. He needs his hands, dammit!
But if this was how they were going to work off that shared anger? Then do it.
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Date: 2012-01-31 08:35 am (UTC)Oh, but Shiro squeezed with his thighs, and Ichigo's lips pulled back, away from teeth that weren't quite able to bite off the groan that sounded in response. Nor was Ichigo able ( or willing ) to stop his hips from snapping forward to grind down against Shiro's. It had been too damn long since anyone had touched Ichigo like this. Much less that hot, slicing, addictive way Shiro's white skin always managed to feel against his; like any moment Ichigo would catch on fire, and burn alive.
Black eyes snapped open again, and Ichigo lunged to nip at that certain spot on the hollow's throat that Shiro had always liked. Then drag his tongue over it. Licking, and sucking a temporary lovebite into being right there.
Blindly, Ichigo pawed down to collar bones, then dragged his free hand down the long, muscled line of the hollow's belly, skimming just shy of his navel, then down. He flattened his hand to palm the strong, smooth line of Shiro's hip, digging blunt, human fingertips in - then shoved his whole hand past the waistband of Shiro's jeans, and squeezed the muscled curve of Shiro's ass with a growl.
Mine.
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Date: 2012-01-31 07:17 pm (UTC)But goddammit, he NEEDS his hands for this! While they kiss, violently, passionately, Shiro continues trying to worm his wrists out of Ichigo's grip. He's feeling much better, but Ichigo still has him on strength. Oops there goes the shirt. And then there's licking. Just in the right spot. It tickled and felt so warm and wonderful.
The Hollow moans unabashedly as his nethers spring to life, warm and hot and tight in his pants, pressed against Ichigo. A hiss escapes his clenched teeth next, and since his hands are still restrained (it was starting to hurt), he squeezes his thighs and hooks his ankle around the other, encircling Ichigo with strong, long legs.
"Krrr.... leggo of my hands...!" He wanted to touch to feel to stroke, please oh please he needs it.
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Date: 2012-02-02 08:57 am (UTC)Ichigo hardly thought about it, simply let go of Shiro's hands in favor of attacking the hollow's belt buckle, and the zipper on his jeans with one hand, and sloppily jerk at his own waistband with the other--
And then Ichigo hissed as the burning, solid line of Shiro's erection was pressed right up against his. Every pulse of Ichigo's heart, ever squeeze of Shiro's thighs, together they made an intoxicating combination that meant Ichigo could hardly even control his own hands as he propped himself up on one elbow, and reached down to squeeze them both together. Playing with the bead of precum forming on the head, warm fingers spread the sticky fluid over, and across the both of them. Touching, and wrapping his fingers around here, and there, hips instinctively pulsing in time with his own heart.
It had been too long, some small corner of Ichigo's drowning reason reminded him. Too long since they'd been together, or done anything like this. It had been too long, and there certainly wasn't anything even resembling lotion around...but it didn't matter. Just feeling the heat, and hardness in his hand, pressed against his belly...god, it was enough to have Ichigo licking his way from the spot on Shiro's neck down to nibble on a collarbone with a shaky sigh.
It felt so good. So right. Just to squeeze them together like this, to feel Shiro wrapped around him, and arching into one another like two halves of a whole slotting into alignment after so long.
A lick, a kiss, a suck at the white skin under lips, and Ichigo nuzzled at Shiro, encouraging him to wrap an identical white hand around both of them, and let them ride out this wonderful feeling together. Just like this.
Please, please, please, just touch me!
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Date: 2012-02-02 11:16 pm (UTC)With his hands finally free, Shiro moves them to Ichigo's head, burying his clawed fingers into Ichigo's hair, damp with sweat and so soft and so right. He pulls him close, pressing their lips together, licking and sucking and biting. The feeling of their cocks rubbing against each other, stiff as boards and sensitive as can be, is euphoric. Shiro lets out a moan that he makes no attempt to stifle, then a hiss. They fit together so perfectly, and this was what their bodies, their souls, craved. To be together, to be one in the same, to feel pleasure and pain echo and reverberate and grow. The Hollow licks Ichigo's chin and neck, nibbling at his skin and tasting his sweat as his hips move in time with Ichigo's. One hand stays tangled in that beautiful ginger hair, as the other traces down his neck, his chest, those wonderful abs, slicing a clean line down Ichigo's shirt with a claw as he goes. Don't need that.... More skin to skin.... more touching. More.
Then that hand finds both of their cocks lying parallel to each other and he grabs, hard, wrapping his hands around them both and around Ichigo's hand.
Yes... fuck... come on!!
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Date: 2012-02-04 08:37 am (UTC)Another bite, snap of teeth aggressively maintaining that this was his, that Ichigo is in control here, and for once, it was Ichigo who was actually behaving something so close to an hollow it would otherwise have been a little frightening. But then the aggression turns on a dime, becoming a surprisingly tender kiss that lands at the corner of Shiro's mouth, a nuzzle to the hollow's jawline, a nip to an earlobe.
But all the while hand squeezed, and pumped, teasing here, and there with a twist of Ichigo's wrist, a harder squeeze to the base of Shiro's cock, then just as quickly back to the shared pressure both oth hands wrapped them both. Ichigo was shaking by this point, head falling forward so that hot, damp breath bathed Shiro's shoulder, his neck. Desperate to be closer, body ignorant of stamina, or any other sight, or sound outside of Shiro's lips, Shiro's skin, Shiro, Shiro, Shiro--
Ichigo's wrist was starting to ache from the added pressure, but he didn't care, and something just snapped inside him, and he couldn't -- couldn't stop!
Panting, and thrusting into the slicked, hot grip of both hands around him, all it takes is that one glancing touch of the claw on Shiro's thumb. The sudden thrill of feeling something sharp as glass, and twice as hard teasing at the most sensitive part of him, and Ichigo broke.
Spine curved taught, hips losing their rhythm, but becoming faster, rougher for it. Ichigo bit down on the white skin of Shiro's throat in order to muffle a helpless whine. Oh fuck, it felt so good, so right, and the heated tension coiling tighter in his gut just burst all of a sudden.
Even with his mouth pressed to Shiro's skin, there was no good way to muffle the shivering moan that escaped Ichigo as he came, and came messily all over his fingers, Shiro's fingers, and splattered across the quivering muscle of the hollow's stomach.
mutual orgasm; u mad, readers? >D
Date: 2012-02-04 11:32 pm (UTC)For others, it was probably horrifying. Mortifying, even. But this was the most turned on Shiro had ever been. Ichigo partially Hollowfied? The growling, the biting (which Shiro returned in kind through shaky breaths); there was nothing better, and he was so hard he just might burst. Kissing and biting alternating in turn, aggression and tenderness looped together, entwined like their bodies. Shiro wanted this, needed this, and it was great. He should really, really make sure that Ichigo was partially Hollowfied every time.
They're not quite as in sync as they could be, so there is some fumbling down below when Shiro accidentally moves his hand the same was as Ichigo, fingers brushing together awkwardly. But it didn't matter. Shiro hungrily eats at Ichigo's mouth, tongues brushing against each other. Of course, when Ichigo starts jerking that way, Shiro instinctively grabs on harder to both of them, claws digging into his own cock and leaving small blue marks even as Ichigo comes all over him.
And for Shiro, who hasn't felt anything this good in a long time? That feeling of hot, wet, sticky cum was enough to set him over the edge too. The pain of keeping it in releases completely, and he comes not but a few seconds later, hips bucking arrhythmically and letting loose all over Ichigo's belly in return. He lets out a loud, eerie noise of pleasure. Of course, gravity means that most of that just comes right back down, squishing between the two as they fell to the blurry euphoria.
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Date: 2012-02-09 05:16 pm (UTC)Not caring about the mess, or the embarrassment of the fact there was no way that the others that shared this living space hadn't heard, or know about that, Ichigo wriggled his wrist out from being sandwiched in between them, and wrapped himself around Shiro. His arms, and legs felt numb, clumsy with exhaustion, and little trembling aftershocks still ratcheted up his thighs at random.
But he curled up, dragging the white body as close as he could get Shiro, leaning in cheek to cheek...and not really even noticing the dry hiccuping little breaths that were escaping him right now. You couldn't really call it crying, because his eyes were completely dry...but it was sobbing all the same.
With the hurt still there, but the anger spent, and the mixture of relief, rejection, then aggressive sex, Ichigo was a mess. As Ichigo's own ears stopped ringing, he made an effort to gulp back the hot, desperate breaths. Shiro would just have to deal with Ichigo tucking his head under the hollow's chin for now. He needed the simple reassurance that Shiro was close. That he was there...and that whether it was love, or hate, Ichigo still needed Shiro.
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Date: 2012-02-09 11:11 pm (UTC)Gone is the hate, gone is the desire for revenge or whatever it was even. Did it ever even matter? How foolish. Wrapping his arms around Ichigo, the Hollow can feel the echoes of that hatred, but can't consciously figure out why it's there. What had he been angry about...? In the fog of bliss and pain and exhaustion, he only felt the need to be close to Ichigo, the need to touch and be touched. What was... sobbing...? Why? Shiro lets a small sound escape from his mouth and he moves his weak, numbed arms up, caressing Ichigo's face with sweaty, sticky hands as gently as he can.
"Shhh... shh..." Shushing those sobs away. No no. None of that. No rain. Cradling him close and rubbing his chin in that soft ginger hair. The hurt remains, but Shiro now wants to chase it away. He felt bad, now, for saying those things. For thinking those things... he had been wrong and he feels that particular emotion stinging at his eyes. Ichigo sobbed dryly, but Shiro cried quietly. Just a few tears. I'm sorry I didn't mean it I don't hate you I don't hate you.
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Date: 2012-02-10 01:33 pm (UTC)He'd been hurt, angry, then hurt worse, then fighting, then ripped back, and forth between being half-hollwfied, had angry, aggressive sex...and finally his soul had righted itself when the dry sobs spent themselves in Shiro's chest. But he was tired...so very tired.
The mess could wait. The rest of the emotional clusterfuck that was his ties to Shiro, and Rukia could wait. He needed just a little bit of quiet...just...a little...
Love you
And without further ado, Ichigo was asleep with his head tucked under Shiro's chin. The hollow had very slow, to no heartbeat, but he was a solid, reassuring presence, and Ichigo didn't particularly want to stop touching Shiro for a very long time to come, anyway.