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[savior_n_black]

Ugh...What a fucked up week.
Those fucking guns that old jackass had were the only reason he even landed a hit, but my ribs are still telling me about it.

Then, Maggie, and that Mikaela girl are alien robots? About had a heart attack just hearing some random video post of screaming, and end up in America, on another world, with a bunch of american military guys all around so I could hardly move without accidentally bumping into one, and then the guy would freak out. Took me until the next day just to get back to Karakura!


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Now, they all want me to use my Bankai. Which, of course they would! And I'm not fucking scared, or some stupid shit...just...don't want to be dependent on it. Godamnitt who am I kidding. I'm having a hard enough time keeping the hollow from taking over my soul without using Bankai!

...Just have to think it through. That's all. Just watch, and keep up what I'm doing...Can't believe I almost broke that kid's neck...what the fuck is happening to me?

...Oh GOD, and that little arrancar knows! He knows, and I'm waiting for something to pop up any fucking second about it. You're an idiot, Kurosaki, and you need to pull yourself together! Because that Ggio kid is going to run off, and tell Grimmjow, and then I'll never hear the goddamned end of it. Or they'll just be attacking Karakura again, and I won't be ready...again...


((OOC: Strikes = things Ichigo thought he deleted this time. This is also what Ichigo is referring to when he says that Ggio "knows" too ♥. ))

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[ridethetiger]

If you know what's good for you you'll take care not to mock who Grimmjow is to me.

Especially when you two - forget it.

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[savior_n_black]

I'm not mocking 'what he is to you', and I'm actually not mocking anything! This is me being fucking tired of listening to this 'poor me' shit! You're smart, and strong, and there's no reason why you can't think for yourself!

I get wanting to repay a debt, but this is wrong! You don't even act like you agree with Aizen! And how do you serve this 'Segunda' person, but still spend all this time with Grimmjow?!

So you might as well say it, and don't tell me to forget it when you let something dangle like that!

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[ridethetiger]

If you think I'm looking for pity forget. This is the truth about arrancar - well, some I guess. Not all of us are exactly happy being where we are, but it's preferable to death or insanity or worse.

I don't act like I agree with Aizen because I don't fucking know what he wants, besides perfection. Which I don't think he found in any of us anyway.

And I don't spend that much time with Grimmjow. I can't. Anything else or do you wanna spill more righteous bullshit?

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[savior_n_black]

If you're not looking for pity, then fine; you've still got a choice in who you follow, and why.

...And why can't you spend time with Grimmjow? I thought you two were...er...dating, or something?

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[ridethetiger]

I'll leave that alone for now.

Not sure why you wanna know but... it's complicated. He's not the Espada I serve, and I'm not even supposed to know him. Just the way 'His Majesty' works. I'm not supposed to know or be concerned with anything but serving him.

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[savior_n_black]

What?!
That's so stupid! If you love someone, you should spend time with them!! That...that....AUGH! That's just dumb, and this Segunda fucker doesn't own you! NO ONE 'owns' you!

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[ridethetiger]

We don't love. Not - not like you think. It's not that easy. But the 'sad' truth is we're all caged here, we may as well be pets. Owned. Whatever. So long as Barragan-sama finds worth in me, and I be less obvious don't disobey, he'll keep me alive. I should be lucky he's that merciful.

Besides, it's not me I'm worried about him killing.

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[savior_n_black]

That's not mercy, it's tyranny! You're not animals!! No one has a right to cage you no matter what it is they've done for you, or to you, and no one else can measure your worth except you!!

This...This is so wrong, and I don't understand why the fuck Aizen does anything that he has, and I don't really get you arrancar either.
If you know what choice is, then why do you put yourself through all that? Why can't you break free, and be with the people you love?

What is it that's really stopping you?

[locked] sorry for the tl;dr XD;

[ridethetiger]

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That's just... not how it works. You don't know how powerful Barragan is - not that any arrancar here is as powerful as Aizen-sama, but Barragan's power... It's terrible, the things he can do.

The strong survive, simple as that. I wasn't one of them, but Barragan spared me anyway. I could thank him, in a sick way, even though I didn't know how little life meant to me until Grimmjow happened. I've endured this before and I'll continue to do so, because worse than just killing me he could put Grimmjow through the worst kind of death if he knew that's where my loyalty lies. He could take it out on Charlotte or Avirama or - hell, damn near anyone else here.

We've all gone through one form of hell or another, and it doesn't stop as easily as wanting it. I haven't forgotten who what I am. I'm an arrancar, and this is how we 'live'. Even if everyone from the community wants differently... it's not something we can change that simply.

Besides... he said he'll make that change happen, and I'll believe him.

Even if we could leave, where the hell could we go? We'd starve anywhere but Hueco Mundo, we would have the take other's souls, and the whole damn war would be taken somewhere else.

Anyway... aren't we supposed to be enemies? Why would you care what happens to us?

[locked] (No worries bb~! )

[savior_n_black]

That's wrong damnitt! Using your loved ones against you like that!
And maybe everyone in DDD wants differently because that, what you've got, isn't really living; it's existing, and clinging to the little bits of life you do have to keep from losing your soul to despair!


....And I care because if this--any of this--is true, then it means Aizen is just using you guys too.

Well, fuck that! You can see me as your enemy all you want, but I don't see you as mine. I'll fight Aizen. I'll win. And I'll set you...all of you free.

Believe me, or don't, it doesn't matter. Fight me, or don't, I don't care.

I'll...I'll free all of you! And I won't stop until I do!

icon spam~ go!

[ridethetiger]

[ridethetiger]

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[ridethetiger]

What... are you saying? We're not looking to be saved - and I don't need someone else protecting me I don't want to be so weak need help. That's not what I was saying at all. Besides, Aizen-sama is ignoring you for now, I think, it would probably be better to keep attention off of yourself?

You really shouldn't put yourself through that for us. Not everyone is like me, and most would sooner fight or kill you than listen. We're - I'm - not asking for a hero, that's not for us. Anything we want, we'll have to fight for. Same as always.

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[savior_n_black]

I don't give a damn if Aizen is ignoring me, I said that's what I'm going to do, and I mean it!

I'm going to do everything I can and it doesn't matter what it does to me. I'll lose my mind if I don't give my all.
You may not ask for it, you may hate me for it. I don't care!

This is wrong, and I won't ignore it! You do whatever you need to do; hate me for it, fight me as much as you need to...I know what I have to do, and I don't make idle vows, or threats.

I'll make sure every last one of you is freed!

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[ridethetiger]

You're uh... definitely somethin', shiniga-



Ichigo.

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[savior_n_black]

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....Heh. That must have been hard to do.

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[ridethetiger]

Hey, don't tease since we're on better terms now. ...I think, anyway?

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[savior_n_black]

Wasn't teasing? Just saying it's a lot of pride to swallow, and call me by my name, there, Ggio?

And....if you want? I don't know, though...might want to keep your boyfriend in mind on that one even though he's acting odd too.

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[ridethetiger]

Pride's pretty rare around here so it's no big deal.

I... Guess I'll try talking to him when I can.

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[savior_n_black]

...Guess I'll leave that one alone too...

Uhh...be careful? Wouldn't want you to get killed...get hurt get into a fight with him just because you understand what I'm doing, now?

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[ridethetiger]

He won't really like to hear it, even though... You guys aren't all that different. I'm not mentioning it any time soon. There's enough going on.

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[savior_n_black]

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.....Not sure if I agree with being 'not that different' from Grimmjow, but...whatever.

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[ridethetiger]

Right... whatever.