Oh no you don't. Ichigo was already hurt, and pissed off, and he wasn't about to let Shiro get away with this 'victim' bullshit. This time Ichigo is left with grabbing Shiro from behind, and with the hollow trying to yank himself away, both of them are tumbled into the bedding, with Shiro caught in a half-Nelson hold.
"Fuck you! I'm not the one trying to run away from shit! You never wanted to teach me, you just wanted to curl up in some dark corner, and hide from all the bad shit in the world! From Aizen, from a fight that scared the fuck out of you, and most of all, you just wanted me to hide out with you! But shit doesn't work that way
So if you really hate me so goddamn much, then fight back! You can hate me all you want, but you're alive to do it right here, and right now! You're alive because I didn't give up! Not just because the Fullbringers taught me how to find you, and Rukia found a way to give me my powers back, either! They helped, and showed me how much of an idiot I was being by trying to do it all by myself!
But you're not going to run away from me! I'm not a liar, but you can go right on hating me, and I don't care because you're alive to do it!"
...It hurt more than Ichigo wanted to let on to admit that. Hurt deeper than swords, or kidou. But Shiro was just using him as a focus for his anger. The hollow didn't ever want to go back, or to fight Aizen, and he was just blaming Ichigo for doing what needed to be done. Well, fine. If Shiro was going to go back to hating him, then Ichigo would deal with that.
Though, maybe this was the point when the visceral, experimental love turned to anger. Maybe this was the part where Ichigo lost Shiro forever? It was a desperate thought that turned Ichigo's stomach...but if Shiro wanted away from him, to never see him again, and be able to hate him without anyone challenging it, then Ichigo would find a way to sever their bond. Shiro could have whatever he wanted, as long as he stayed alive to do it.
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"Fuck you! I'm not the one trying to run away from shit! You never wanted to teach me, you just wanted to curl up in some dark corner, and hide from all the bad shit in the world! From Aizen, from a fight that scared the fuck out of you, and most of all, you just wanted me to hide out with you! But shit doesn't work that way
So if you really hate me so goddamn much, then fight back! You can hate me all you want, but you're alive to do it right here, and right now! You're alive because I didn't give up! Not just because the Fullbringers taught me how to find you, and Rukia found a way to give me my powers back, either! They helped, and showed me how much of an idiot I was being by trying to do it all by myself!
But you're not going to run away from me! I'm not a liar, but you can go right on hating me, and I don't care because you're alive to do it!"
...It hurt more than Ichigo wanted to let on to admit that. Hurt deeper than swords, or kidou. But Shiro was just using him as a focus for his anger. The hollow didn't ever want to go back, or to fight Aizen, and he was just blaming Ichigo for doing what needed to be done. Well, fine. If Shiro was going to go back to hating him, then Ichigo would deal with that.
Though, maybe this was the point when the visceral, experimental love turned to anger. Maybe this was the part where Ichigo lost Shiro forever?
It was a desperate thought that turned Ichigo's stomach...but if Shiro wanted away from him, to never see him again, and be able to hate him without anyone challenging it, then Ichigo would find a way to sever their bond. Shiro could have whatever he wanted, as long as he stayed alive to do it.