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Okay, this last virus? What the hell, man? I mean, sometimes these things have a totally crazy sort of logic, but this time it was so...random.

Well, anyway, back to normal, I guess? At least I don't have those stupid ears, and the tail anymore. What a weird way to fight, too. Guess it was some kind of magic? Or maybe just magic words.

Inoue? Are you back home, now?

And, while I'm at it; how about the rest of you guys? Oh, and sorry for giving you the third degree, Tommy.

[ Friend's Locked ]

...So, has anybody talked to Rock, recently? I saw that post the other day, and...yeah. Didn't look good.

((OOC: If you're not sure if you're a "Friend" just ask~. Annnd, bear with me on slow-ish tags, please? Some day I'll get caught up, again, I swear o999!!! ))

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Kinda? Could at least feel him. When I'm in someone's mind, I don't see things like I normally would, s'hard to explain.

Though I actually caught a glimpse of the guy the first time I tried reading you, I didn't figure out it was the same dude until recently, then put two and two together.

Not gonna ask, but... yeah. I've got enough things to worry about than to add that to the list.

...Oh. So, you basically tried to read my mind a long time ago, and couldn't.

'Tch. Well, if you don't want to know about other people's shit, maybe you shouldn't offer to look into their heads.
It's like inserting yourself into someone's life, then saying you don't want anything to do with them because you didn't like what you saw.

Hypocrite.

Yeah, at least I admit it, though. You try living in the world I did and not get at least somewhat paranoid about everyone that gets friendly with you.

No you don't! You admit that you come from a sucky world, and act like that gives you some sort of right to invade people's thoughts!

What the fuck, man?! When have I ever, ever, lied to you?! You can't go around acting like everyone ever is going to screw you over!

It did, and it still does, in a sense! I only did it once before, and that was a long time ago, when I first got here and was paranoid to the core.

What am I supposed to think - people get wind of what I can do and either try comin' to me like I'm some sort of goddamn messiah or want to use my powers for their own stupid ideas half the time. I'm no miracle worker and I sure as hell don't want to be someone's tool.

...Yeah, I call bullshit on that one. Being powerful doesn't give you the right to decide what people can think.

And, anyway, what does it matter if someone wants to use you as some messed up tool? You just don't do it if that's the case.

[ Oh, Ichigo. If only you were far enough along in your canon. YOU MAY BE SINGING A DIFFERENT TUNE, LATER L-LOL. ]

I don't try to, Ichigo. That's something I've sworn off doing since I left New York - I'm not gonna force people to think what I want them to. It's bad enough dealing with fallout in one sense.

And it's not that simple, you know that! For all my power, I'm only human, and a teenager, at that. I'm still tryin' to figure out what the hell I'm gonna do -

[He cuts off suddenly. Tell him about that or not.]

...

No, it is that simple. It might suck, and might be hard to deal with, but it's that simple.

...If you don't want to talk about stuff, you don't have to. Just don't try to pull that "my world sucks, so that's my excuse for treating everyone like they're all out to get me."

Whatever you say.

I'm not trying to, but that's the best explanation I can give for why I'm the way I am right now.

Than and I don't exactly have a whole hell of a lot of time left.

[ Wary about you, now, Mr. Cryptic-speak. ]

The hell are you talking about "not much time"?

[Well, cat's out of the bag now. Joy. 8|]

I'm dying, Ichigo. Been dying since the day I was "born". This power that I've got? It'll kill me before I turn 21. My body can't contain all of it.

...How...how can you know that for sure? It's your power. How can it be killing you?

Because no human should be able to harness the power I can. My original purpose? Was to be used as a living weapon against the tyrant that ruled my homeworld.

I wasn't expected to have a long shelf life.

That's why I'm so paranoid, not just because of the circumstances I grew up in, but also because I'm worried that I might end up not only killing myself, but a lot of innocent people along the way.

[ There's a long pause while Ichigo thinks this over. On one hand, he gets what you're saying, Nate. But, on the other, that sounds like a little slice of hell. ]

...Going through any life, no matter how long or short it is, all alone is no way to be.

I mean...what's the point of your existence if you don't leave behind some good stuff? People who knew you, who you helped out. Memories of great things. Knowing you don't have much time should mean you live every day you've got to the fullest.

Live well. Smile as much as you can, and when you do die, do it with a smile.

[ A wise man once said the same to Ichigo, and he thinks it sounds like good advice. ]

Believe me, I'm tryin' to help as much as I can. But sometimes my "help" does nothing but hurt. I've seen that happen the hard way.

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